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issue 4: MIXTAPE

hopscotch

GAIA RAJAN
after Nina Cried Power​—Hozier
I was a god like any other, startled
by my hands, poised to spring. Landed

on the edge of seven, elbows inscribing pavement,
my shoelaces unraveling. I learned curse words

from the boys, slipped them between hops, shouted them psalm
on the street that looked like a postcard with the back blank,

the shutters claimed by daisies. In Ohio all my favorite birds
died of blunt force trauma against glass doors. The good men

wore white shirts and choked the cleanest women
in the sedan to church. We played hopscotch, played

until our scraped knees hurt worse than the whistle
of a switch, worse than the thwack of firewood,

worse than our torn hides in midnight basements,
breathing. The schoolteacher kept rulers sharp

in her desk, warm for our knuckles. Sometimes
we stole chalk from her chalkboard to paint the game

out back, drew footprints like weapons. How long ago was it
that I realized this town would never love me back? Girls

went into alleys and did not come out. Girls went
into churches and did not come out and I was not scared,

more quiet. Hopscotching to the next spot, the sun spinning
like a phonograph. And we prayed, but only to the physical,

the switch, the boys in empty stadiums, the men
who took us out behind the shed

wielding wood they cut themselves, oh,
they were good men, almost worthy gods,
​
damned if they’d ever let a girl talk back.

Gaia Rajan lives in Andover, MA. She's the Managing Editor of The Courant and the Poetry Editor for Saffron Lit. Her work has previously appeared or is forthcoming in DIALOGIST, Rust + Moth, Hobart, Kissing Dynamite and elsewhere. She is a 2020 National Student Poet semifinalist, and her chapbook, Moth Funerals, is forthcoming from Glass Poetry Press. She is sixteen years old.
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