I am willing to contort myself prop up on all fours, drape across the fever heat of his body like a tray table--time for lunch drop my nipple straight into his wild hungry mouth. But he doesn’t want me that way. Everything on his own terms how dare I take our private show on the road there’s no space to pull over, release, breathe, feed milk and tears pulsing forward while traffic stands still
We’ve seen this stretch of highway countless times just months ago back home for the baby shower tiny pointless shoes soft blankets, stuffed bears cardboard books with handwritten notes Congratulations on beginning life’s most beautiful journey! Enjoy the ride!
We can make this trip with our eyes closed I have never felt so lost
Claire Taylor (she/her) writes about motherhood and mental health. Her work has appeared or is upcoming in Yellow Arrow Journal, Capsule Stories, Kissing Dynamite, American Writer's Review, Canary Literary Journal, and more. She lives in Baltimore, Maryland, and can be found online at clairemtaylor.com, Twitter: @ClaireM_Taylor and IG: @todayweread.